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This is a very useless post of curiosity about me, dedicated to all my loving stalker \u0026lt;3 LJ
This type is abandoned and I do not think I'll use anymore XD but if you really want, add me as well, every blue moon step to look at the f-list.
For all others who already had me in f-list (and maybe not seeing more around me have reason to de-friend): I do not write here anymore for a long time especially since this was a wonderful period for me shit \u0026lt;3 Ah, bad news, as they can be delicious \u0026lt;3 There's nothing more wonderful than a blow on the neck that affects your life \u0026lt;3
However, after briefly useless for my old and new readers often ask some questions (like what smoking before beginning to write). Since it is Christmas and we are all better people, if you have questions or curiosity about the plot of some of my story, ask me (if my notes there never was enough) I will answer you.

- Type rommmanttiche stories (and this I bet you did not notice any) I happened to someone, reading, ask me have I love that idea, and indeed to reflection, I wondered what do you think that I love my readers (a concept is too convoluted?).
I will be ruthlessly honest: I love sbrilluccicosa and less romantic idea of what may transpire from perhaps my stories XD
I think what you want to love change with time and mature over the years - what I want from my man now is not the same thing I wanted two years ago, for example ... no, not puns vedeteci - what I can say is I do not believe in love at first sight but nell'arrapamento at first sight, but I do not believe in prince charming man who believes in my rights as a woman often trampled.
In my stories I do not speak of love I want, but the one who needs the character at that point in her life, and when I write the forms of obsessive love than I do in order to vent some of my hidden perversions or black and neurotic impulses: I do it out of curiosity, to prove myself, there's nothing to psychoanalyze perlamordiddio!
regard to the forms of love less healthy and more obsessive (as in The Old Paperclip or last, Rest For The Wicked ) in writing are not my kink (such as branding, tattooing from the simple to the more flashy pacifier) I write because I believe that it is difficult to put on paper as closely as possible certain certain instincts and obsessions, I like to see if I can extricate , but are certainly not my ideal of love XD
what I've always thought is that you should love someone like a part of himself - an arm, a leg, a lung or his heart - then ended up feeling died when he / she is not there because it's like if you miss a vital part of us, but we love that someone is thinking of us, inside us , assimilated so much from him again in what you do and do not feel a lack suffocating. I think that for better or for worse always learn something when you love, bring a loved one within himself mean mature, change, evolve encounter with a character different from ours. I can not stand people who love in the first way and are reduced to nothing when a loved one there (which is why I hate Twilight: Bella can not judge an example, far from it), as well as people who can not stand understand that something is done.

- A good 80% of episodes of bad luck or a fool up in my stories ... these are facts of real life.

- I admit that more than a couple of my stories are autobiographical, not in the evolution of events in itself eh, but a minor part of the episode and the feel of the character.

- I lived for just over two years in a student. You see, right? XD

- The Teddy Lupin's Flames Into the Dark is the largest self insertion of my life, I admit candidly.

- My original male character, in my opinion, I like more character and Max Foedus Custodum (yes, I know, you would have said Romi, sorry XD).
women it instead of my undoubtedly Last Columbine.

- I have an obsession: to use only the notes on the stories on the cover notebooks with small cats or ants Fabio Vettori.

- I think Ultimate Star is sensational for me, not because I think it's so cool, eh? XD but because it is "sensational" that I wrote it with a poker face. And have it published as well.

- Because of a health problem not curable, some time ago I thought I'd never be written because I could no longer do so (I want to clarify: this is not a problem at hand). For two years I no longer wanted / could write a single line, only when the treatment has made me a person as normal as I could resume. After I have never stopped, but the fear that one day I may be further aggravated in all honesty that I always carry a burden, not only could not write any more - that would be by far the lesser evil in comparison - my life would never be the same, I would not even "I".

- As you might guess from the previous point, I suffer from health problems with a certain degree of comorbidity and mine are quite unlucky with regard to health in general: Most of my stories have been plotted in rooms sadly d ' XD

waiting - some of my jokes pg more salacious and often entire dialogue was written on my hand quadernino in pseudo waiting room of the station in my neighborhood.

- Some of my characters smoke. I think I have a predisposition for smoking, a smoker could be hardened, if only just beginning. Good thing I never did, or I think now, with all that I would be bitter cocks.

- Although I speak in my stories often gay, I do not believe in that "gays are the best friends of women." A gay can be the best friend of a woman, but may also prove to be the worst enemy of the entire class, especially if it is a fag with delusions suppressed by first lady.

- To me, that I'm better on the Lemon Lime.

- I think as smoothness, my stories are the best first-person male homosexual theme.

- as a story can be a work in progress, I do not ever affect the demands / desires of the players on the course of the plot. I am a non-biased people of this world from this point of view.

- It happens that I put online a complete story all at once, or happens to be a work in progress and put more than one chapter at a time. In none of the cases are never satisfied! XD By the way, in the long run claims not update soon I tired, I collide, because each time I do not put online a few pages of chapters, but more than 30 pages word each time and not only that you are aware of how I am with regular updates, it is pointless to ask. I would appreciate that you respect the fact that I have a social life or that I should always write.

- The insist on telling me to write on a particular fandom or go back to writing about HP just makes me angry and pushes me to make me hate the fandom in question, be warned XD

- So no, HP will not write anymore , fatevene one reason: I feel the physical need to move constantly in my settings.

- I write stories gay-themed or not, but I read mostly gay-themed stories.

- I feel a spontaneous aversion for those who hate it too hard a character or a certain genre, mostly because I think "hate" is too strong a term and it seems ridiculous and childish to reserve certain things.

- In junior high I read Pirandello and Verga (never repressed the desire to set fire to the cycle of the won), then I went to great manga. I made progress.

- the fantasy classic swashbuckling prefer the fantasy genre. I've only read fantasy classic The Lord of the Rings, but even now escapes me the meaning of certain things that Tolkien would have liked to say, um.
What the hand I never get tired is David Eddings, who died in 2009: I love his Belgariad and The Epic Saga Mallorean although because of the fantasy classic with this group are incredibly rich with irony: the characters are classic (there's the magician, the young warrior, thief, witch, princess ...) but they are so stereotypical as to be absurdly comic / more human / sometimes very realistic. Eddings was made fun of fantasy stereotypes, showing strengths and weaknesses of the classic magician and displacing This emphasizes the reader. In the fantasy genre
my one big "master" has always been Jonathan Stroud, with his irreverent style tremendously, especially in the trilogy Bartiméus: it has completely redesigned the classic fantasy genre with the Wizards writing a story set in an alternative London where magicians are in power, magicians and shrewd cynical among other things, using only the magic to invoke demons and make them work for them. Stroud is optimistic point of view of a sarcastic mockery of the epic moments with vitriolic jokes that you would expect in the middle of certain atmospheres and environments can create incredibly realistic alternative. What I've always loved, among other things, is that in the Trilogy Bartiméus there are "good", the good does not exist: all are bullshit sooner or later, everyone thinks first and foremost to their well, or at least they do until the inevitable end.
We see that these two have taken so much, right? XD read them I realized that the road was take my style. At
I Rowling a certain lightness and spontaneity in telling the facts, I think, I think that was the one pushing me further to the creation of new worlds and settings in my stories. Kinsella to think of having a certain amount of frivolity and verve. Gaiman On the tops of the dark tones.
As you can see, my readings are miserably low culture

XD - There are genres that just do not like, such as horror, especially if accompanied by splatter.

- It happens that someone reading my stories you see hidden meanings, and I added tot particular because it seemed like a cool / tacky / American beautiful to wear. *
bales hay roll in the background *

- I think my stories to a particular community is a sense of loneliness in the background and the desire to hope again.

- You'll understand who I am only when I face him. My
will color be the last hours of the day and make the night really dark.
I'll be so obscure that there are no shadows: I will be the only shade.
Gotta eat every color and every sound, the emotions and the weather will clear, the days will flow all the same under my feet.
Give me a name, try it.
divide the world into two parts and you will be with me. Follow me on your own: either us or them, and I will be so
comfortable for you ... Give me a name, try it.
There will be no more life, there will be no hope, the water that could quench your thirst you will feel dirty.
I'll be sticky and you will flow to the skin, go into your eyes and become the house from which you will not want out.
Give me a name, try it.
I am knocking at your heart, and I will open my company forever.

Death.
Despair.
Misery.
pain.
Mourning.

Inferno.

Give me a name, try it.
[From the Dark Into Flames]

I never said, but I say it now: I wrote this poem thinking about the symptoms of a disorder mood according to DSM IV. The name that I do and despair.

Under the earth, beyond the aquifers, animal burrows and roots of plants, something under the rock beats.
Even at this time the heart beats of the earth, red and fiery, yet not quenched.
Under our feet, the center of the earth, the fire burns.
Give it a name, try it.

Life.
Hope.
Care.
Fertility.
Passion.

Love.

From a name, try it.
[always Into the Dark Flames]

The name that I do is hope.

- I like to write stories that make even fun; the rare times when there are comic interludes ... they all die (see, for example The Shield).

- in the playlist when I connect two mesh points I write "things happen". Then when writing gets to that point usually sudden comic dialogue (yes, that's right, often the dialogue is improvised on the spot XD)

- In the ladder, when it expected to write the names of the two trumpet pg with a little heart next.

- usually listen to a lot of writing music before, after I demand silence.

- It happens that I ask of my musical tastes, curious about how many verses here and there I put in my stories, listening to great music of the 90's, nu metal, British pop and indie rock. Over the cover of Glee, of course. My two favorite songs have always been of the Goo Goo Dolls Iris In The End Linkin Park.
I feel an inexplicable aversion to Vasco Rossi, but also for Tatangelo and Gigi D'Alessio, of listening to Italian Elisa (but sings in English) and a few pieces of Negramaro.
hate the house.
(yes, even in music tastes so I learned a lot XD).
I remember when I was in elementary school the teacher asked us girls who dream of playing the instrument, all said the piano - in their childhood dreams and it was very pink "from A Little Princess" - I said, "The guitar Electric! * _ * "
The teacher was left visibly upset.

- The story that I was more painful to write is The Ice in the Heart, the most difficult to draw because they are very dramatic / haunting is The Old Paperclip ; that I was last in his fingers as if nothing had happened, believe it or not, is Foedus Custodum .

- In the end, my two best stories are read and commented Foedus Custodum and Twilight of Innocence . Of oneshot instead Beauty and the Nerd.

- My dream unspeakable, that which I am ashamed even to say aloud that you will do now-now-now pretend not to have read, is to become a screenwriter.

- Dream writing, but I can never let go enough to afford the "luxury" to dream of doing something.

- In the life of every day, I often make funny faces without realizing it, especially when the person in front of me just said bullshit. I realize they play in an unconscious way.

- I'm shy so ridiculous rather than asking for information on where to go, I'm going to guess. Always lose.

- I once slammed the face against a glass door because I did not see. During a seminar. Before some 300 guests.
I came a bump so big, my friends went to the bar to ask if they had not ice but, the bartender took pity on me and gave me a flower of the strawberry Algida to use instead of ice. But these things are.

- According to tests of intelligence serious and not taken from a comic, I have the typical intelligence analyst as a journalist. I sometimes reporters are on my dick (from what you see how much I love myself).

- There are nights when arriving to throw down even 10 thousand words, then the next day I hurt the tendons of the fingers.

- I love the dear old Europe, I never dreamed of going to other continents.

- Anyway, I seriously traumatized me Bambi, eh?

- Yesterday evening we came to a conclusion of vital importance: My stage name is Rosalie Herbst, which is the name of my mother in English + Fall in German (a language I do not like, but it sounds better than Autumn) . And so it was that I never released.

- I opened the fan page on FB to find my lurker and encourage them to talk to me in a more direct and easy. At the end use that page more than anything to take myself for a ride.

- Last summer, the number of reads my stories has mysteriously risen, as if suddenly I read more people. As I am a person who likes to stay mostly behind the scenes, the thing I was scared, in some ways. With Shinystat counter on my site I also discovered how many people are looking more and more of my stories and the thing that shocked me most was discovering FB groups talking about it and people unknown to me talking about it in their blog in a "last book I read. " What puzzled me was to see me as someone "known to" call Graffias feel (for me it's just a nick, I'm just Gra) and understand that I was aware that some consider my nick guarantee for a good reading. I know it's paradoxical, but it shocked me enough to immediately close the browser.
am a shy, reserved and self-esteem below zero, I constantly fear does not deserve anything and that what I could disappear at any moment: to learn to be so much appreciated and see me from the outside had an impact on me in some ways I have yet to understand.

- I started posting stories in October of 2008, I have always posted under the nick Graffias stories (and mars25oct on LJ), I was briefly on Nocturne Alley, never on EFP (which I only have one player account ). I came across the fandom in 2005-2006 (can not remember).

- I want to tattoo on his right wrist a small compass with north facing index ("straight ahead, straight ahead).

- I am not pessimistic, simply I'm not optimistic. It is also ironic and otherwise better off otherwise.

- This year I kept track of the written word only teasing: If there's one thing I see is on the ball and fanwriter complain about what they write and always be there to get the bill to reach certain heights (this is why NaNoWriMo in which to take the shovel). The writing has its time and should follow the natural rhythms, are of the opinion that if you aim to arrive at all costs to certain limits you will end up just to write something flat and it will not be a good exercise in writing, everything ' more.
So fuck you all: this year I've written 611,505 words, in one month I wrote 94,402 words and there have been times where in less than a week I have burned more than 50 thousand words.
There are those who can and who can not, I can . And people read me as well, eh?
Gnégnégné!

- Yes, Rest for the Wicked I made fun of the ENTIRE fandom, myself included.
In that story there are various jokes at everything, starting from the vampires, you switch from fandom! Draco and you get the classic cliché that I always put myself in my stories. When you say "just take it seriously."

- Graffias does not exist, and Graziella Graffias exists only a small percentage of me that you see probably offset by the world virtual. Do not imagine me ever pussy, but mussel, low, overweight, with glasses and blackberry with a heavy Sicilian accent. Here, that's me.

Your Gra.

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At dusk - Stephen King

One evening, while doing some 'zapping, he came across a program on hypnosis. The guy they were interviewing a hypnotist who claimed his name was Joe Saturn, said that everyone practiced every day a little 'self-hypnosis. The next morning we use it to enter into a spirit-oriented work, and when we read a novel or watch a movie we use it to "enter history" in the evening there serve to fall asleep. That last example that Joe was the preferred Saturn and dwells in illustrating the various systems used every night to ensure a "good sleep": Check the locks of doors and windows, perhaps, drink a glass of water, say a little prayer or engage in a brief moment of meditation. Approached these rituals to the mechanisms set in motion the hypnotist: count backward from ten to zero, for example, or convince the subject gave himself seized by "a heavy drowsiness."

Exercise, pg 177

The reality is a mystery, Dr. Bonsaint, and the texture of everyday things is the stuff with which we mask brightness and darkness. I think for the same reason we cover the faces of the corpses. We see the faces of the dead as a kind of door. E 'closed ... but we know that is not always closed. One day you will get for each of us and each of us will cross the threshold.
But there are places where the fabric is torn and the reality is subtle. The face behind you peering through ... but not the face of a corpse. Almost would be better if it were. The Ackerman's Field is one of those places and it's no wonder that its exhibitor has driven down the sign that says DO NOT ENTER.

N., pg 287

THE KING AND 'BACK
(and I, last night, I fell asleep with the light on)

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A school of magic (and other stories) - Michael Ende

1. You really want
only what you think.
2. You can believe only
that pertains to your story.
3. Your story belongs to

only what you want really.

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Colorama! Books


Comment with 'color me', and I'll give you a color. And then you post ten things of That That color you like.

el_defe gave me the red , although I had thought the 'orange ... luckily we thought hikaruryu to rely on!

RED

I think I could die on a pair of crimson red lips ... I know I'd be charmed to observe them stunned for minutes as a fourteen year old on his first generous cleavage and a neckline that generous I do not do the same effect . I know it's a bit 'dated a cliche, but I think the dyed red lips are a strong symbol of femininity.

Ok, I know ... this is clearly cheating. Technically this is not a porn thing and nemmno the red rating. But sky, even if my friend less interested in the genre of stories that I write and sex in general last night at dinner he's coming out with some other crap you wrote of yours? I have to resign to the fact that the rating is red part of me!

Death of the Virgin - Michelangelo Merisi called Caravaggio.
not think there's anything wrong with putting Caravaggio after the porn, because his figures are much the hymn to the denser flesh and full. The first time I saw this enormous painting in the Louvre I heard running through the skin overwhelming feeling that must have blocked the breath coming out of Santa Croce in Stendhal. The tragic and dark red dress of the Virgin taken from dsperazione curtain hanging over that of the apostles and Mary Magdalene so young and so tried talking directly to my heart.

Red wine is one of the pleasures I've learned to appreciate as an adult. A good glass of red wine and stimulating company is something that comes close to paradise for me.

changing from a defect in the other, these are the cigarettes of love ...

Blood has a morbid fascination and sublime symbol of life and death.

Red roses are the favorite flower of my mother and I think I've made peace with the thought that I might die if the person you love comes with a huge bouquet of red roses ... oh, that woman from that cliché!

The red shoes are a heritage of humanity ... who would not want to have a couple to return home after exploring worlds and mysterious secret? Ok, maybe after committing a murder to obtain it;)

was the little car that I stole my brother more often ... oh, the fire truck!

One of the symbols of London, which in turn is many things for me, the first trip without parents with my sisters, the first trip with the love ... Amanda.


ORANGE

Aperol Spritz! The symbol of the appetizers I made a million and I'll do with my closest friends, with friends recently, and even with acquaintances, at one time or another, with a beautiful mysterious stranger. ;)

The orange cat, from Garfield on, I have always been nice. This is a Scottish Fold and orecchiette with those bent, the characteristic feature of the race, I am filled with wads of love his heart.

Ichigo's orange hair! Drooling ...

Rupert Grint makes me boil hormones ... and I usually do not make the Reds who knows what effect.
But did you see in the picture where you smoke? Instant mass death of neurons

persimmons for me are the sweet surprise of the warm autumn.

I believe that the mandarins are my favorite fruit ... known to be sweet to have brought tears to the eyes with emotion and harsh as a slap in the face of a friend. I love the fruit that surprises me!

The flames are orange and red and blue and white ... but I have clear memories of my first bonfire in the camp: the black of the night lit by the orange glow of a fire fascinating.

Special tonanalità sunset, time of day you prefer.

Orange is the color of the details of my wedding dress.

Ok, yes I know ... I'm cheating again. But he's Jason Orange, a member of Take That, boyband of the 90s that now has an interesting back, a symbol of my first attack of fangirls!

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Unable to decide what to read now and perhaps a little 'unable to leave go to the book I just finished.

I just finished Step in Tehran and strangely I find it difficult to find a book to love ... or at least to read!


In a book written entirely from very personal reflections of the trip addressed to Virginia Woolf and then adapted for any reader, I was struck by this passage on the letters to friends.

It 's almost as hard to believe in Persia in England than it is in England to believe in the existence of Persia. Rebuild piece by piece, from various letters, as are our friends and what they do, it is as a game, like a jigsaw puzzle, clear, fascinating, but difficult to connect in some way to real life. Yet it has its value, since it cuts a new facet on the gem of friendship. Stay in touch with friends only by letter, show them to us under a new profile posted, separated from the apparatus of personality: appearance, voice, gestures are no longer there to mislead and confuse, what we get is the essence, certainly incomplete, piecemeal, perhaps, but pure in its partiality. And so the letters become a really fascinating game, in which we are forced to enter all the resources of our imagination. In addition, fragments are set aside in our memory, small fragments disconcerting, now click into place, and are glad to have made a discovery so enlightening, even at such a distance. We will come back from our friends on a more solid, and not, as you might imagine, having made a separation between their lives and ours.

Step in Tehran - Vita Sackville-West

Well, completed this small task that I had promised myself I am to decide what to read now. I reduced it down to three books and maybe if someone wants to help me choose my next read ...
these books are (it appears that I messed with Anobii, eh?: D)

Good Omens! - Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman



Feet of Clay - Terry Pratchett



Hitchhiking with Buddha - Will Ferguson




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Groundhog Day here

I did some 'cleaning between changes in community and tables that do not feel mine. This is what is left and which allotment will not say to write regularly or overwhelmed by the fury of creativity that I took at other periods of my life ... simply is not what I wanted to throw it and I still talk .

Ideal Seduction

Claim: [HARRY POTTER] Severus / Sirius

# 01 - Hair

# 02 - # 03 Lip

- Liquid

# 04 -

Tape # 05 - Look

# 06 - Silence

# 07 - Tango

# 08 - Velvet

# 09 - Velo

# 10 - Vacuum

Kinks & pervs NOSTALGIA Author: Ellepi story ends: 1 / 3

- Pervertibles 50 / 024. Brush

Pervertibles -50 / 036. Uniform

Kinks -50 / 001. Rituals / Ritual

EDIT. Of course, after I add a new space! My table bingo_italia

dinner by candlelight	Morsi	Alcoholism	Break	Amnesia
Poison	physical pain	Scar	Corda	Marriage
Dream	Candles	JOLLY	Abuse	First Kiss
Confession	Bouquet	scene	Vendetta	Need
Embrace	Curse	Accident	Beach	deserted street

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[ORIGINAL] How many roads must a man walk down (before you can Call Him A Man?) [3.2]

Title: How many roads must a man walk down (before you can Call Him A Man?)
Characters: Billy and Franz (Francis William)
Chapter : 3 of 4
Part 3.2
Rating: nc15 (language)
Warnings: language, homosexual relationships

***

While Billy rushes in the room to prepare the bag, but, above all to decide what to put on his hot date, Paco recovers quickly, without delay, cell phone and calls Dan, can not resist the curiosity. ready to Dan responds with a gruff and inquisitorial. "Where the hell is my son tonight?"
The man is silent, startled by the question, and then try to take time with mock dreamy tone.
"Uhm ... a pizza with his beloved aunt and uncle? "
The answer comes in the form of a growl tense and Daniel can not understand when Paco is forcing to game or you really pissed at them for giving cover to her boyfriend.
"Boys, I know you adore them all three and would do anything for them ... how to provide home to Leo for his first time, rather than a seedy parking ... but let us tell bullshit, ok? Where is my son tonight? "
Dan realizes that time is over the games fun to mizzen to cover his nephew loves homosexuals as well, knowing perfectly to break another promise for the sake of the boy, admits the truth.
"Okay, okay. Franz ... it comes up with a pizza with him. "
Daniel expects any minute the explosion of jealousy disguised as concern for his father Paco, but they surprised him with a long moment of silence and a tone just curious.
"So what? Anything else? "
" No, nothing more. "
replication surprise, however, Paco shows how confused and did not really realize what is happening to his son Dan and found innocent wheat, understanding once more because her husband loves this man like a brother to the gruff and sometimes a bit 'too firm on their views.
"Why did not you say? Why did not say: Look Dad, I stop for a pizza with Franz. It's not a date! "
Dan beat a strong hand on the forehead to the absolute inability to see beyond your nose Paco, if one was not pledged to keep the same phone and the other does not stroking obsessively curve of the back and the bare bottom of Ephram softly asleep on his stomach down beside him. He takes a deep breath to keep from laughing in his face and then seeks to explain how these things between two people that you attract.
"Yes it is. Franz asked him to go out and Billy agreed. "
The sigh of resignation of Dan Paco encasing the heart in a gesture of tenderness and its response does, almost , Peeping.
"I'm an asshole frustrated. I know, you know, I know, and my son will not speak. Shit. "
Dan knows Ephram would know to take the perfect time to show what's Paco is close with a pat on the shoulder and the right words, but Dan has, for the best friend of her husband, the most rational explanation that he can hold on to.
"I do not feel ready yet."
The puff of resignation indicates that Paco is beginning to manage the frustration of not being able to do anything because your puppy is happy and safe. He can only hope for the best and rely on those who chose to have next to Billy at that time so intense.
"Look, now I go back to preparing dinner. If by chance that asshole Billy does something I expect and I demand to be warned, ok? I know you will call you, its fucking fairy godmother! "
Dan laughs and then reacts as he believes that aspects Paco.
"Fuck it, eh! We are not loose glitter and Drag Queen! However, he's not going anything ... unless he wants it! "
feels distinctly Paco hold your breath and then whispered with a conspiratorial whisper.
"Do you think I pick if I put a bit 'of condoms in the bag?"
Dan rolls his eyes and then replied resignedly.
"Yes, we give it, okay?"
Paco seems to have realized that he exaggerated a bit, and so change the 'tone, but they remain decidedly on tenterhooks.
"No, give him a bit 'more money for pizza. Oh I do not know if it's better to know before your child is about to lose his virginity ... again. "
At that point Dan did not hold back any longer and teases him.
"Come on, it seems that you have to lose ..." Paco
frowns and the tone comes out very tense.
"Maybe not, ok?" We hear some noises in the background, the hiss of the microphone and then covered Paco returns to talk with Dan
"Ok, wait for the greeting, is coming out."
They spend a few seconds Paco and then explodes.
"Shit, comes out with its clear favorite jeans and tight sweater. You pulled me up like a fag, but at least knows how to dress! "
Dan chuckles as he listens to greet his son Paco.
"Hello baby ... have money for pizza? Otherwise there are on the table in the kitchen. Do not always pay your uncles. "
" Dad ... "
" I know, do not call me baby. "
And you can enjoy the laughter of man and the boy who loves and considers part of his family.

***

Billy comes out of breath to training, because, as usual, is the last to arrive and the last to leave. When he enters the gym he realizes to be really late, because all his friends are already there and somebody gets hot with a pair of balls. His coach called him back and he replied without stopping.
"Hello, Sandra ... I know I'm late, I change in a flash. No, I have done nothing to the eye ... I was a fool with my brother. "
has prepared this dance all afternoon giggling at the fact that her classmates oh-so-worried said he was a violent clash in soccer and dad ; he said he had been a pole. I just hope not to confuse the lies and get even more trouble.
Billy enters with downcast eyes and a fury in the dressing room, throws her bag and begins to unfasten and remove their shoes without shirt and sweater set. Get rid of the shirt and has virtually already unbuttoned my jeans when I looked up and met the eyes of Franz ... and there the world stops.
Franz's eyes is that of one who has noticed his cheekbone swollen and feels a worm. It ends with a sigh and put on his shorts and tries to smile politely in greeting while the others are distracted by something else. Down but now the look on their allacciandosele shoes. Better not to dwell on that body or the other will notice , Franz seems to think. Is quickly distracted by the entry of Jo, her best friend, which reminds them of saying get a move on. Meanwhile Billy
have managed to squeeze shorts and shoes, yet they were still bare-chested. But before Franz bait, greets him slightly tense.
"Hey, hello ..." This time Franz
smiles openly responding to the greeting and then, because they are alone, reaches out and touches his cheekbone swollen, informing sorry.
"Does it hurt?" Billy
squinting for fear of feeling bad, but then relaxes and responds.
"No, not so much. I have become cool at school today saying it was a contrast in playing hard ... you had to see that sweet eyes among the girls. "The winks, biting her lips then ask anxiously.
"Listen, Jo knows what happened yesterday?"
Franz's smile becomes a little 'more guilty and looks away in embarrassment.
"Uhm ... yes. Last night when I called him later ... I told him that he was a bastard to have me play a shot left-handed and so, well, in the end I said what had happened and he swore he had nothing to do. Then he started laughing replied that he would have thought that you could be a joke like that ... "
Billy puts on his shirt before you find out about what he would like to know more.
"And also you said tonight?"
's smile softens when he says Franz.
"No, that's just my thought."
Billy looks at him intently and the only voices out of the locker room do desist from making a step closer to another boy.
"Shut up and come to make you beautiful to warming up! "Billy
heard screaming and biting his lips, and a second before leaving, she murmurs, without setting Franz.
"Hey, that's fine if we keep this thing between us out of the gym? Now training just because it is already difficult. "
Franz chuckles softly shyness of Billy, but is also aware that he has to literally take your ass to prove to their coach who still deserves his place by the owner, so nods.
"I totally agree. I have to concentrate if I do not want me Sandro banging off the team! "
The younger boy gave him a beautiful smile and then leaves the dressing room. Franz cuddle a bit 'in my heart that gesture to herself leaving a few seconds of advantage to give the impression that they are not expected.
Training is tough for both concentrated as they are to give their best without distraction. Franz occasionally succumbs to the temptation to follow the gaze of the body flexible and agile boy who has stolen the heart and every conscious thought, but then comes back to bite the bullet to end the workout with dignity, knowing that there by little, the dream of a romantic date that has rocked for a whole year become a reality.
Billy can get away with training more or less except in some instances, a contrast in all areas against Franz who delivers, as always, with your butt on the court. Definitely the structure of well-placed Franz makes a good defender and the light and agile Billy makes him a bit of talent.
When he finishes on the ground looks up at him and met the eyes of Franz guilty and worried he is about to kneel next to him to make sure that does not hurt.
"Everything okay? "Asks
anxious reaching out a hand to raise it. Billy laughs and accepts the help.
'Stop to worry, you look like my mother ... "and then scolds him gives him a friendly pat on the behind.
"That seems to put me down just a habit for you."
Continue, while Franz raised chuckles.
"You are ... baby ... "she says, knowing that the other puppy read in his words. Continues to be highly displaced from the pat on the behind, but try not to show how much he was pleased.
"Piccolino, saw this beautiful," Billy replies with a laugh, before stealing the ball and shoot in the area.
Come Catch Me! "doing the screaming idiot. Do you really want that does not change anything in their game, as they have always been physical and hugs and pats on the butt have been the traditional way to celebrate the team's good work, does not want another turn in all malice, because, well , Billy discovered he was unworthy to drool your ass muscular Franz.
"Hey," yells behind Franz, taking to recover the ball and it takes very little because the game becomes all against all, until Sandra did not call to order them like kids at recess forcing them to resume & rsquo ; training hard. Fortunately
the group back on track and working to the satisfaction of preparing their next game. Definitely happy with the coach sends them to the shower with the latest recommendations and advice. When they all go in the dressing room, Billy, as usual, he stops to put in place balls in the hope that Franz fulfill its promise to take a shower before him. Too bad that, once back in the locker room, when she looks up from his bag, the clear eyes of Franz crosses half-naked in the middle of the room. The eye automatically goes down to stroke his neck, toned pecs, abs and then outlined the bulge under the towel that intrigues and attracts Billy. When the older boy young man realizes that he is intent on setting the groin of another man, raises his eyes in a hurry trying to think of something else not to blush at sight.
Franz enjoys smiling long look at that Billy's dedication after averting eyes intimidated. Can not resist staring at very carefully, in turn, hoping not to be caught by anyone. It is painfully cute and can not do anything except make a puff to make a move and begin to dress, enjoying himself with the usual teasing from the other dressing room.
Meanwhile, Billy has finished his long shower and leaves the bathroom as usual, flip-flops with rubber feet and a towel to dry on the face hair. The attitude with her naked body is the same as that of his father and uncle Ephram, Mom and Daniel do not share at all, that is a natural relaxation without necessarily wanting to be an exhibitionist, so now no one is surprised more to see him run naked through the locker room.
comes almost instinctively to his bag and starts to get dressed with some care, seeing Franz who shakes her head smiling because of his habit.
And then I think you ask when did the nude! He chuckles to himself. But if that does nothing but go around without clothes! Frank shakes his head and still smiling ends of dry hair. Puts the hair dryer, adjusts the collar of his blue shirt and puts on her shoes, tucking in the sides of the laces loose and trying to stay calm now that the moment will only really Billy is fast approaching and he feels a growing thin performance anxiety.
Franz realizes that, fortunately, most of their fellow she was already gone, too butchered for beer post-workout. When Jo comes up to him to go, he politely refused and answered with a smile secret waiting to accompany him Billy. Jo stares for a moment, captures the anticipation in his eyes and then slowly, greets him with a tone very allusive.
"Okay. We feel tomorrow. "
The decidedly predatory smile as he greets Franz nodded without looking away from the guy who is running out to prepare Jonathan gives all the answers, perhaps, did not want to have. When the dressing room is completely empty Franz approaches Billy, puts a hand gently on the shoulder to ask
"Hello?"
Billy looks up at him, stares at him with disarming intensity that almost makes in awe of the older boy and then replied in a voice hoarse with emotion and a smile that lights up everything.
"Yes, hello ... We take the jacket. "



*** (**) ok, if you are wondering what he was doing Leone, the elder brother of Billy, with his sister's barbie I suggest you read this delight: Games of large of koorime_yu

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[ORIGINAL] How many roads must a man walk down (before you can Call Him A Man? )

Title: How many roads must a man walk down (before you can Call Him A Man?)
Fandom: Original -Our dolls-
Characters: Billy and Franz (Francis William)
Chapter: 3 of Part 4
3.1
Rating: nc15 (language)
Word Count: 10,844 (fidipa) (1979 to koorime_yu and my 8865)
Beta : I have to thank sourcream_onion for alpha reading, cuddling, the reporting of obscene phrases and all endurance.
Disclaimer: Billy, Franz and all the merry company owned koorime_yu and I, are used without permission if they become boring and petulant straight homophobic ... believe me, just not worth the effort! XDDD
Warnings: language, homosexual relationships
Summary: Billy discovers he is in love with a boy and this brings a lot of trouble.
Notes: here we are after a long eternity, I owe an apology to those who have been waiting for this update for all this time and I'll spare you the usual excuses (RL, Pornazzi Amanda and that took me more than it should , performance anxiety writers, deep hatred for the chapters that did not want more to come later ... oops, maybe in the end I save them to you;]]) wishing you a good read.

first chapter (Part ) (second part )

second chapter (the first part ) (second part )

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Billy wakes up with a smile unusual for a morning when to go to school. He opens his eyes and the first thought that inflames the heart with a flame that is excited Franz asked him to leave and he's really said yes.
squirms a bit 'in bed stretching and running his hands on to wake up, too bad slip on his belly and then on the boxer who begin to come alive. Billy smiles a notch more mischievous and let the thoughts flow on the memory of warm lips and soft Franz, his chest broad and solid, its scent, all details that have been blessed the night before, and then to call the memory every time I watched him guilty in his dressing room while he changed or was having a shower. The vision of the naked body of Franz's head and exploded in the bottom of the stomach making him moan with a strained sigh. At the precise moment that reaches out and touches herself, her cell phone rings for an incoming message that makes him move away from the wrist to instinct. He shakes his head, chuckling with surprise and then stretch your fingers to retrieve the phone from the nightstand. It fits better in bed curled in a blanket and opens the curious message.

Hi, puppy. Take me for a maniac when I say that I do is think about the moment when you kiss? F.

Billy's smile is tinged with a streak of tenderness and excitement and so is quick to respond biting his lip.

Maybe this thing go slowly with kisses, ok? I have yet to get used to the fact that you do not have boobs! ;) B.

The response comes after a few minutes, just when Billy fights with the alarm on your phone. There a moment of panic when he thinks he has lost the message, but then he recovers and gets out of bed and began to dress.

Hey, on the other hand I respect all of the chest, you know? Do not worry I will not do anything you wont, I promise.

greedy smiles and licks his lips at the thought of body sensation in the fingers of Franz. Fortunately, the only one who gets up so early and none of his family can see the light in his eyes and sighs to be overly warm in the morning every school. As for who wants to enjoy the feeling of having a cuddly little secret you should not make a move to to be late. So he was able to answer only planted on the bus with headphones in his ears to keep the world a little 'far as he tries to wake up slowly.

'm schizophrenic, I know, but now I've made you curious to hear how they are toned and your chest ... your hot sweaty skin. Blush.

But it must wait until the interval mid-morning to read the reply of the boy, spending all the time between messaggino and the other to look at the phone every two minutes torturing her lips with his teeth.

Arg! I 're taking revenge, right? Now I can no longer out of my head the image of you ... Well I caress.

The game is fun and it keeps him on tenterhooks as it had never happened before. It is a sort of courtship that has never experienced, highly charged and, together, a lot of fun to guess which barely rules and boundaries.

Scusascusascusa! It is not revenge ... only that the idea of being able to think of yourself without feeling guilty ... I apologize J blizzard, do not know with the guys. L

past few minutes and already his cell phone returns the messaggino the other boy.

No hurry, no worries. I really like to know what you think of me as someone ... desirable.

A shiver runs down your back when Billy comes to mind often when it lingers on the mind and Franz made his with a smile sms particularly inconvenient with a malice that increases as the exchange proceeds.

Uh, do not think I'm a maniac, but I also do other things while I think of you. It's funny ... no offense.

It is normal that it is strange for you. Do not worry, do not insult me for certain whether tell me you do more.

is strange for me to think of a male. That's it. Sorry to be so clumsy, I wonder what you would expect yourself.

I do not expect anything, really. Oh God, I admit that I did some little thought, but I'd never do anything to scare you, I am a gentleman. Less

gentleman, is disturbing and I feel like a woman! Knowing what might happen would help me relax ... I hope to avoid a fight this time.

The first thought I had was that when I get my hands on it will not be to beat;) Look, seriously, are you sure you want to know? And are you alone?

Look, it's just a game, no? Nothing we say will be mandatory to do tonight, right? If so, then yes, I'm alone, and yes, I know.

shame that Billy should postpone the reading of the response at the end of lessons, not just because the actual time, and permission, of course, have a look at his cell phone during school hours. Also because her friends have decided that that bruise on the cheekbone requires an in-depth and very worried. So he is amused to explain that he had a falling out hard in the gym making them as a brood of chicks peeping just out from the eggs.
Of course, when the last bell rings, he pulls out the phone and tries feverishly the last message received. He greets his teammates make fun, while you enjoy the law and close the bottom of the stomach at the thought of putting into practice the fantasies of Francis.

I would kiss you. You really attractive lips, you know? Caresses your face while you suck it out with plenty of quiet to enjoy the moment. You do not know how many times I've dreamed of. And then ... then declined to make you long to caress your back and a somewhat 'more discreet on the ass ...

A shiver runs on the skin as if the phantom fingers were stroking and teasing at that moment when a tiny moan escapes from her lips parted, eyes widen and embarrassed glances around to see if someone on ' bus has noticed his pants underwear. Fortunately, no one seems to watch and so goes back to concentrating on its small exchange of teasing provocation.

I must be honest and admit the thrill of excitement that your words have on? I can only tell you that I'm the voice in certain situations;)

God, I would like to hear from you. Indeed, I hope to hear from you soon. And you? What would you do?

risk of tripping on the step of the bus trying to get out without taking his eyes from the display of the phone and dials the message almost without looking at where it goes. Fortunately it is on the way home and the steps seem to follow a path already unconscious. She bites her lip and thoroughly re-read his statement a few times before taking a deep breath and send it with a bit of embarrassment and a lot of excitement that flows on the skin.

I wish I had the courage to go with the tips of your fingers, soft lips, throat, sternum, toned abs, navel and ... I would not stop the hand.

Okay, now never be able to concentrate on anything and just think about your hand naughty. I wanted to enjoy more of the kiss you gave me, I wanted to feel your taste.

The thought of your lips and your tongue I will explore the fantasy that I torture you throughout the day. I'm not blushing.

Too bad, you have to be very cute when you blush. I would now give you the kiss that I promised you. I'm looking forward to tonight to finally do it.

thanks Billy, for once, his lucky star continues to smile at him and he was having lunch alone without even having to give a convincing explanation for the black eye, definitely does not have, and without having to give up the phone for a minimum of education. The exchange of text messages tells a story of longing and nervous expectation fun going on for the evening and Billy is torn between the excitement and slight anxiety for the news.

I can not wait for tonight and I'm terrified and I do not speak of the training. How we organize ourselves? A kiss.

Find somehow relaxing transferring the burden of organization and management Franz evening, even if Billy knows he is a control freak at times, feels he can trust because some skin will take care of him the best.

Well, I would say the first workout, then pizza and a walk in the park, so we can keep your hands to yourself;) what do you say? A kiss, puppy.

Do not call me baby! :) Perfect organization. Listen, do me a favor? Do not wait to take a shower, okay? Blush.

The thought of taking a shower with Franz's blows up a lot of inappropriate thoughts in my head. Now that may not need to feel guilty or strange just because a man makes him itch their hands want to touch-and-touch, know to be a few inches from the guy who wants to put him in any way embarrassed. Topics that might just disgraced before the entire team just because they can resist the smile and the lips of Franz since he knows that his desire is reciprocated. The confirmation of the other
messaggino his own desires and do restart the game malicious.

XDD Why? Problems to stay out of my shower?

Have you ever thought of doing it seriously? I say slip into the shower with me? I I wash your back ...

all times. And you certainly will not help when you went away forever around naked, even if ... Well, I can not complain.

Definitely Billy is very difficult to concentrate on the study setting every few minutes the phone, longing for a move to give the watch to arrive early and make the hours of training. At some point, however, including a study of function and another for dirty messaggino Franz, he realizes that he has yet to find a decent excuse to stay out late. He chews a bit 'lips doubtfully, then decide to call who had always governed the game in a complicated way. At the first ring
Daniel would simply rip the plug from the wall to shut up the confusion, the second asks why he should get out of bed where he sleeps on Ephram's having made love, the third begins to worry because no one at work know the house number, which is only used by the family. In the fourth, very reluctantly, after giving a kiss on the temple to Ephram and it reassured him that it would take a little and go to sleep, he decides to stand up and take the cordless phone and a drink. Take a look at the caller ID and no wonder that comes from Paco's house, since no later than yesterday puppy had decided all of a sudden, perhaps the exploration of homosexuality. That is why, after his first entertainment was certainly not surprised to hear the voice of his nephew William.
"Hello, uncle." The tone of Billy amuses him very cautiously for two reasons: one is because, of course, still does not know which uncle is talking foolishly romantic-Dan is that he and Ephram are more ; or less the same voice on the phone, and the other is the typical tone of one about to ask a favor that could ritorcerglisi against.
"I'm Uncle Dan, Billy ..." puts an end even before they begin to talk of ballet only futile to guess the identity of the interlocutor and then asks reminder "There's something wrong, honey ? Have you discussed again with Franz? "
better get right down to it before the boy is lost, as usual, in various speeches for not addressing the problem.
"Hello, uncle!" Dan smiles for the joyful tone of Billy when he recognizes and is moved when it lowers the tone to explain his problem. "I was wondering if, well, I have a little help. "
Billy pauses that Dan recognized as the most classic moments and then continues to take courage. "Tonight, after workout ... we go out, that he asked me out for a pizza and I, of course, I said yes. "
When Dan is silent, waiting for Billy to explain, the other goes in the pile up panic ideas and words.
"No, no ... I was a mess of thoughts in my head. Shit, Uncle! It's a boy, that is ... Well, you know, no, no tits e. .. e. .. Well, you know, no. "
Dan smiles even more, touched, and replied nonchalantly apparently because the boy begins to make peace with the idea of seriously exciting to find a man.
"Yes, it has something more, but do not combine to force anything, right? Mica forces you. "
" No, indeed, is a gentleman too well ... "more mature
The man can not resist a giggle at the implied malice, but declined to comment to focus on one problem at a time.
"Do not worry. You can also just go out to dinner, right? "
"Well, yes, yes! However, the problem is that I like dick I say to Daddy? "Dan
not even need to think about too much about before finding an easy and clean for their beloved grandson.
"Uhm ... if you do not want to explain anything yet, you can always say you go out with us ... "is a mischievous little break and then concludes" ... and we spent the evening doing other things. "
" I too! "
the very moment in which Billy replies with a sure and decisive tone, Dan laughs by pretending to be surprised shocked for the game.
"Really?"
But what really makes him laugh is awkward and tense reaction to Billy.
"Oh my God ... no, I said! "
" Yes it is. Pig! "Replies jokingly as he opens the fridge with his phone between shoulder and ear to pour a little 'cold milk. Receives the reply to discount Billy with a smile and a few words to calm him.
"Nooo, that is ..."
"You do not see the time, but you're terrified. You normal to be afraid of something that you do not know. "
" I'm not afraid ... "he huffed and Billy then goes quickly," is all the attraction I feel for him, which is a male and not has tits and is made equal to me, that leaves me blown away. "
" Stop with this fact of tits, the male body is just as beautiful and exciting, you know? "
Billy laughs and teases her uncle.
"You suck ... of 'the truth! "
Dan sulking before answering.
"Yes, a bit 'yeah! "Billy does a
amused smile again reassured by the advice of his uncle and playful replica quiet.
"To me, however, until last week were crazy and even this morning I leaned in to look around the neckline of Federica; is strange to know that I'm attracted to both sexes, that's all."
"It is normal we do the corn ... forced to touch you! "
Dan enjoys the laugh of his grandson and then his return to the obvious speech that upsets him more than a couple of days now.
"I hate to think that even if I have already had sex with a woman, I still find to be a virgin again .... "What
of virginity is a very sensitive , not so much to Dan that his first time he lived with great care and entertainment, but Ephram, still concerned that someone else lives his youth made up of many little boys and love. Daniel picks up ideas for a moment, because he knows he has to say the right thing without annoy a guy who wants to be a man. Takes a deep breath and then gently suggested his idea.
"Do you think you have two chances of losing your virginity, you have thrown a a bit 'at the first opportunity to see this fully enjoy it. "
Dan has a very romantic idea of sex, very feminine, related to its past experience and its relationship happy and satisfied with Ephram, but he also knows that Billy is , a boy sure of his ideas and therefore does not discuss when hasty reply.
"Hey, it was just sex ..." and then continues in a practical way, "listen, I will not lose my virginity tonight, I hope. My problem is how to tell Dad that the rest out for dinner, never did stories for a beer, but I would stay out of most, if possible, and not just to have time infrattarci but, well, to talk a bit 'of this whole thing between us. "
Dan answers already safe with the cell phone in hand ready to send a message Page.
"I told you to go out with him that we will trust."
The pause is suspicious of his uncle, the boy and he does respond.
"Hey, you seem a bit 'too sure ... is not that I hide something? "
Dan brings out the tone of a responsible adult and, together, affectionate uncle who has always had an effect on her nephew.
"We will ask for confirmation and we will keep you playing, I know your father. "
And, once convinced the boy, greets him and dispatches a messaggino the best friend of her husband.

Whatever you say to the bruise and tonight, you credigli. We'll tell us.

***

Paco has not returned home happy. Definitely the messaggino Dan did not make him happy, and if were not for him, he would precipitate in the smallest room of his boys to extort by force what the hell happened. But the experience of the first with his first-born silent and then all the cries of her child every time he came into the room or bathroom without knocking taught him to wait patience with the unfolding of events. Ultrasonic still remembers the screams of her daughter who's railed against asking the support of his mother against his unworthy invasion of privacy, but also the embarrassment of having to endure the lessons of lights that had taken him aside and instructed him quietly and seriously about how to deal with the delicate period of their small - not so small - with the same tone in which the blaster shall notify the basic characteristics of the bomb in front of him.
That is not entered in the step of charging the boy's room demanding an explanation, but has contented mumbling a greeting from the desk without Billy turned, caught, hopefully Paco, by the study. Decides that the only tactic is a good retreat to play a bit 'with the computer waiting for the explanation that someone owes him.
When the chat window lights to signal an incoming message, Paco does not make us much attention, got groped by how to beat the record of Lights in one of those silly little games that are online. But the annoying trill of the program responds with a grunt and a snort that was enchanted Franz resigned to the devastating resemblance to those he feels do even the smallest of the boys Castoldi.
Paco
definitively renounces his record when he realizes that Daniel has that look in chat. Dan, explain to me what happened last night in my son? It is a week that goes around thoughtful and cranky last night and went to bed almost without saying goodbye.
Paco can almost imagine the smile surprised to Dan for his offhand attitude that changes quickly when it's nasty in a gradient from an exchange of greetings ironic consolidated.
Hello to you too, James!
Good morning to you, fag! But every time we have to do 'I'm theater?
I told you, I love your name, it's you that you feel taken for a ride.
is a silly little game that has been going on for years. Virtually no one uses the full name of Paco, except his wife, very private moments, - since he discovered early in its history with Ephram - and Daniel, is nevertheless a very popular name for a male ether iron bar as the best friend slash roommate watchdog man with whom he had fallen in love. You know perfectly well that
Luci loves to use my name when we make love ...
What is it, sometimes you capita la sovrapposizione delle immagini mia e di Luci?
Non farmici pensare!!!
Dan scoppia a ridere per la reazione scandalizzata di Paco e calca il tono.
Ma allora è vero! Allora avevo ragione quando dicevo che sotto sotto pure tu...
Certo a Daniel non è mai venuto in mente di pensare che Paco sia interessato agli uomini ed è per quello che trova sorprendente tutta la foga con cui l’altro difende il proprio onore.
NO!!! Non è vero! Bastardo…
Dai che lo so che mi adori!
Paco lascia che un ghigno gli colori la faccia di un’espressione a bit 'more mischievous before pretending to answer a warmer tone.
Hey, at most know it, who is the only man to try?
Dan's eyes went from making horror proud to explode in indignation.
Fuck you, Paco! We think not!
The smile of James becomes more fun while Dan reacts as usual to his provocations. Paco never admit it, but all the jealousy that Dan shows for Ephram, after more than twenty years of report, warms the heart and makes him think that his friend has a more fraternal man that is finally as it deserves.
What? Now it bothers you that too ... underneath ...
Asshole!
explodes again the other sulking and then continues in polemical tone.
And then gives me some discomfort that you are more queer to me, it bothers me in the end your continuous tried it with my Ephram! You know it, that'll cut your balls if only we try?
Paco laughs so hard to do call from his son in the other room, then returns to the conversation in a tone a bit 'less malicious but still fun Dan
to reassure you the same old fairy adorable! Would there be any danger if Ephram had a little 'tits and a vagina, baby.
Dan tasty bites his lips at the thought of the naked body of her husband.
Luckily I can vouch for its delicious and its really good penis testicles.
Paco shudders slightly surprised and disgusted to the image, replicating.
Another thing that, immediately before dinner, I did not want to think!
Dan chuckles and Paco back to tease for fun, knowing that the man did not let him go without a response in kind.
your fault! I love still scandalized after all these years.
scandalized? I?
Yes!
Treasury, who was first lady offended by scenes when we brought the children to the nudist beach?
Just because I have a sense of privacy. They were kids! We have traumatized, poor children.
I see how my children are traumatized ...
Dan snorts strong in the direction of the laptop and if he had put his nose in front of Paco's like a real princess with the pea before muttering something that looks very much in what he writes in chat .
Oh, look, I can not help it if I ... ashamed!
Paco is outrageously funny with an increasingly brazen Dan that transforms shyness quickly when they know to be safe. Paco, years later, he realized that Daniel deals with the life of his chest to hide a certain amount of insecurity, an attitude that makes the eyes of her husband even more lovable and, consequently, also turns on the affection in Paco, unable to refrain from pouring all his protective instincts about who also Ephram has chosen for himself.
But dear, you have nothing to be ashamed of, indeed.
Paco has learned over the years to take very relaxed and joke about things like attraction and flirtation, fun to surprise a lot Dan
Arg! Do not be marpione with me, you're disturbing.
But cooome? I have always had a secret passion for you and my ruthless court to Ephram was just a way to reach you!
No, it was just to make me angry and then I fell in love with and faithful to my Ephram.
No, really? So break my heart.
Okay, enough, I swear that you are disturbing.
Paco steals one last laugh at the reaction upset and jealous of Dan, and then come seriously to take care of his kid.
Vabeh, the tears! Look, seriously ...
must be a bit 'of violence for many reasons, one having to ask for help at all to protect one of its children, since it is a proud man and has always been regarded as an attentive father and present.
If there was something wrong with Billy, and he did not want to talk to us ... well, hey, as long as they talk to someone trusted to be good. Even if you ...
Dan takes a few seconds to untangle the meaning of the bits put together sentences that Paco and answers the question implied joke about it a bit '.
But how much you asshole! Sta ' quiet, Billy is doing well.
Paco is not satisfied with a simple reassurance, wants to know what is really happening to her son, insists that a bit '.
Billy You're not mess with the school ... or drugs, or cock, girls?
Dan is torn between the need to protect the sacred bond of trust and responsibility it has towards the boy, even if it means lying to him and tell everything to his parents. In the end, to ward off their sense of guilt, tries again to reassure Paco hoping it does not ask for more.
No, do not worry. You a boy in the leg and needed some advice, that's all. She's smart and you have grown up beautifully, do not worry.
Paco, as Daniel was expected deep down, do not let go and insists on knowing.
Why did not come from us? We have always talked about everything.
Paco's tone seems to Dan so upset and worried about him sigh of participation. He takes a deep breath and then the hook because the other you get there alone.
There are things that their parents do not want to talk, it is not yet ready to talk with you ...
pass at least twenty seconds before Paco replicate in disbelief.
We never had trouble talking about sex ...
I spend another ten before Paco grasp the implied and write clearly altered.
There is something of which we know nothing? And fuck, you, yes?
Dan knows that Paco did not take it well, whatever he's thinking at that time. It is clear that they are talking about something that man did not expect the least of his children, because there were no signals that could come to doubt any of them. Daniel now knows that he must just stay calm, because if he knows at least the best friend of her husband will say something you regret immediately carried away by the enthusiasm and concern.
Yes, yesterday we talked about something, but ... trust me, it's nothing to worry about. It is a teenager, do not get a thousand of your film. Nothing happened, I swear.
Paco gasps. A hit like that really did not expect and will react aggressively as always happens when you do not know how to deal with the unexpected. Beats on the keys with a fury who would like to convey to his interlocutor, if he were at that time certainly Dan growled.
No, apart from discovering his godparents wonderful that your son is a fag ... other than that, it did not happen anything.
When you read the reply Dan bites bottom lip and nails in the palm tree does not get to scream and pass himself off the urge to punch. But then he realizes that Paco is a friend and should definitely be shocked to react like that. So grab the phone to Ephram, just because it is the one most at your fingertips, slide Heading the call and starts. The time a couple of rings and then the voice of a contrite and tiny Paco begins quickly.
"Sorry ..."
Dan for a while enjoying the tone of the other depressed because he is right and the other man is wrong, but then becomes an adult and not sneaking much.
"You're a moron and your son is not a fag or at least not completely." He pauses for
groped to come together and find a common strategy.
"Look, you let him the time he needs and let them understand that when it hit me decide to tell you. "
" No, I do not beat you, but you're stupid? "
immediate and heartfelt response of Paco softens Dan as a father is sweet and worried. He always thought that Paco is a man who defended tooth and nail the people he loves and would do anything to make them happy.
Daniel takes a moment to respond calmly.
"He was terrified to make you angry. I told her that you're not the type, but I do not think I have listened. "Paco
snorts and then resigned to justify his previous unhappy exit.
"Hey, sorry about before, right? You know how I am. "
" Stop. Yes, I know how you did so I'm not offended. Again, you're an idiot and if you get angry, offended parties. It's all okay, I did not have power. "
" He's my son and I worry. "
The tone of Paco, a tiny, anxious, almost makes chirping Dan Luckily its only almost , otherwise Paco would have taken for a ride to die for the display of frivolous femininity. Having recovered from the failure of gay, replied in a tone that wants to make sure their skills and responsibilities.
"I know, is normal, but here we are, right? Do not leave it alone. Ephram would never allow him to do his mistakes and even myself. "
A Paco no choice but to sigh resignedly and rely on them.
"Hey, you think you, then? Take a look at your godson? "
Dan responds immediately and with enthusiasm.
"Sure!"
"It's really frustrating not being able to do anything ..."
"Let him time to figure out what he wants, when he will decide for you. It is more like Ephram to what we thought, you know? We shall much privacy, you do not say anything. "
Paco takes a breath that seems a bit 'more calm and respond with a thoughtful tone.
"Well, I know it has a funny way of being reserved. It's the only guy who has no problem on the beach nudists and locks the bathroom door when the shower ... "
Paco is a little time thinking about what she said and then the shot changes a little bit pointed comments.
"Oops, did not close because the shower ..."
fun and a confirmation of Dan asks a question much rhetoric.
"But as we saw killer of as kids? "But what really
Paco does not expect the answer is a bit 'too honest for his taste.
"Um, I do not remember but definitely much. But right now I much prefer me to your best friend! "
Dan enjoys the ways in which Paco choked trying to swallow the very unwelcome surprise and then gets more attention when the man tries not to die of embarrassment.
"Arg, you bastard! Thus in treason, not true! Hey, I have another favor to ask ... that effort. "
" Come on, you'll make! "
It urges them to continue to have the satisfaction of using a amused tone, gloating to all hesitation and discomfort they feel in the voice of the other.
"Bastard! So, Billy knows how to work with a woman ... I do not believe they are going to ask you. "
Dan's smile cat that ate the bird becomes huge and almost embarrassed to be so damn amazed by the situation.
"Siiiii?" Paco
loud snorts and replies with a mock serious tone.
"I told you I hate you, today? "
" Billy told me yesterday, that is? "
Replica immediately with cheerful voice.
"He's my son! I am proud. "Paco takes a break and then throw out what the press ask him. Dan, of course, he could tell him without him suffer so much, but there would be no fun for him. "Look, we know both that Ephram is a pig in bed, but has trouble talking about it seriously ..."
"Hey, do you know?"
Dan snorts jealous.
"Your boyfriend says more than it should ... "
Paco responds immediately assuming that the other knows it, so it is surprising that almost dreamy tone with which Dan replies.
"This did not expect, here. My little slut ... "
" What? That talking about sex between us? "
" No, that tells what we do ... the more I thought so. "
Paco holds thoughtful for a moment but then she confides.
"God, I should not tell you because lights kill me, but guess who told her how to do blowjob decent? "
The stunned silence and then blurt surprised Dan puts much alarm in Paco.
"Fuck it, then it is true that the better you did Ephram!" Paco
remains frozen to discover that an incident that was thought to be kept private between him and his best friend was, instead, well, domain public.
"Shit, I told you that?"
distress calls, but Dan answered with total confidence.
"Paco, you have secrets with lights?"
"No. .. except this. "The tone of Dan
automatically loses the coloring ironic which usually turns to Paco, in the subtle game of jealousy and hostility that has as a close friend of the heart and deep love of the other, to take a touch more careful and concerned when it realizes that it is not , a topic on which you can play safely.
"Why do not you tell him? Look, it's been years. "
The long silence of Paco is afraid to Dan the man decides to wriggling from the speech with a joke for not addressing the emotional burden that they bring up the past could unleash. They fought often on his way to avoid the serious talk with jokes that lighten the tone. Dan regret that Paco does not want to trust him in years, but at the same time, he knows what it means to maintain a facade of joker in order not to worry about others and cope with their grief and their fears alone.
Paco takes a breath and murmured softly, as a justification.
"Because we were not together and are cocks Ephram ..." Daniel smiles
Paco moved to yet another attempt to protect, even after many years, Ephram, and safeguard their privacy, the confidentiality that Ephram had always defended nails and teeth. But her husband is and he knows how this story really has carried out; sees no need for Paco face the knight and serving it on him all the responsibility. Replied in a tone a notch more gruff and dismissive to hide the emotion.
"Even we were together, but he told me because he trusted. It was an episode without weight, only one of its moments of depression ... I know you wont tell him why Ephram is one thing, but you were there, is something that concerns you, too, no? " Paco and minimizes
snorts.
"It was just a blowjob ... uh, half a blow job. "
not Dan give up and reply on the same line.
"No one's stopping you from telling your wife, your only experience of man," makes a small break and then joked, "maybe you happy!" Paco
giggles and replies with a mischievous joke.
"Hey, what do you know that my only experience?"
Dan raises an ironic eyebrow and then follows the beginning a playfully affectionate exchange.
"Paco, please, but if you just talk about it sends you into panic! The only way is to talk about teasing. "
" Caught. "
" Shit, after twenty-five years I just knew you! "
Dan loves to be right but gasps response of Paco.
"After twenty-five years, I trust you to point to entrust my child, even if this means that there will be hidden important moments of his life ... and twenty-five years ago I trusted you enough to rely Ephram. "
Dan takes a few seconds to recover and still his voice cracked with emotion comes out.
... I know e. .. thank you. "
Paco does a smile and takes a bit 'around to dilute the intense atmosphere.
"Please. Hey, now do not move you, shrinking violet. "
Dan recovers quickly and unleashes one of their most classic entr'actes idiots, who are, after all, the way they say they value and what you are fond of each other despite our differences.
"Asshole."
"Hey, I love you too!"
"Do not cry not me."
"Nah, never."
"Fuck!"
"It could please me? "
" I say yes! "Paco
holds back her laughter when it offers the ultimate thrust of this exchange mischievous.
"We offer for me to experience? Have you always wanted to put me under. "
Dan acknowledges the joke and give him the rope.
"Gee, if there were no lights ... and Ephram, for that matter. I believe that we live skinning. "Paco
snorts his fun and gloss.
"So I keep my baby close and my virginity."
To which Dan replied in kind.
"Behold, the better. So I keep my boy and my promiscuity! "
playful and relaxed atmosphere on the availability Dan, Paco try to bring up the subject on his little boy with all the dose of embarrassment that a straight man and a father has for this type of argument. Dan, used to catch every change of tone, humor him and try to facilitate them to cross the finishing speeches.
"Instead, I wanted to ask ..."
"Tell me!"
... Ephram is embarrassed to do serious talk ... "
" I understand. "
" ... but if that fool of my little monster ... "
" I take off my embarrassment. "
" had need ... "
" I talk to him I sex. "
Thank You Gratitude
excessive sensing in the tone of some Paco 'makes him feel guilty and then addresses the question of what have already said, with a little 'cautious, not to totally upset.
"Do not hate me, but yesterday I have already mentioned a little something ..."
"Type?"
"Uhm ... is that he asked me if certain things were wrong and how could he know if he liked, so I gave him some advice. You do not see suddenly come into her room these days, you may forget to close the door .... "Paco
snorts and says almost bored.
"For years, we knock on their doors, there was enough Leone who played with Barbies with his sister." (**)
"Um, well. However, I worry for you, not only for Billy. "
" Why? "
Dan leans on the kitchen table and took a sigh, shaking his head. How do you explain to what Paco said to his son? Does not want us to scream like a novice shocked.
"But you did not understood what I told him to try? "
" No. "
Dan does not know how to make him understand without telling her directly, just simply be thrown away.
"Auto-erotic, Paco. With your fingers. "Seen who has not heard the explosion of outrage and scandal try to check carefully that the man on the other side of the phone is still there. "Uhm ... you're not passed out, right? "Paco
welcomes the information in silence and then reply with total confidence.
"No, I fainted. Daniel, I do not understand what there is so outrageous, is an interesting play ... "Then he realizes what he just confessed and asked with a chuckle. "It's not that you're unconscious you?"
knows that this confidence might somehow disturb the idea of straight iron that Daniel has with him, but repeats that he does to her boyfriend and because, after all is mature enough to admit that Dan feels safe, in a totally irrational if it just takes into account all the sarcastic jokes that were exchanged over the years.
not expected to replicate but Dan tells him simply.
"Once I Ephram caught it when we lived together. He had not realized that I had returned home and had left the bedroom door ajar as usual ... I have the wide open and, well, I was shocked to the point of mumbling an excuse and run away, I have not spoken for days, Ephram not until I faced, apologizing and talking. He explained how it works and I clarified some points on homosexual sex that much ... like I was not clear why a man should have it put in the ass and have it too please! "Chuckles a bit 'and reassured when he heard Dan make a giggle and a sigh in response to what is clearly convinced delicious the practice just mentioned. Paco ends up admitting his confession. "The first person from whom they are left to me and I wanted to try ... well, I guess. "
For a moment, Dan shuddered with horror, because the first person that came to mind is his beautiful and sensual husband, who had a crush for teenage Paco and that very probably has sublimated into strong and lasting friendship. But the moment passes and the rationality of uncertainty takes over, making him say jokingly.
"Lucilla have partied that day!"
And while Paco growls at the clear joke, Dan crush his hand.
"Oh, but I always knew! I've always been right, in under six fennel! "
" Hey! "
He rebels against James and Dan adjusts the shot with a chuckle.
"Bisexual? After all, a practice strictly gay! Oh, how I can get my ass now! "The growl
Paco increases in volume and becomes a threat.
"Look, if you do not shut the phone crying and I go to the third degree to Billy. Certainly, in the heat, sputtanerò my sources telling him that his most perfect uncles, which you can always rely on, only for his own good, gliel'hanno put in the ass. "
If the threat terrifies Daniel, particularly as it to him Ephram would pay for ruining their relationship with the boy only sadistically to have fun with Paco, the last exit of man does it again giggling like a pre-adolescent struggling with his first comic risque. When Paco hears him, he blurts out.
"Do not you dare! Why am I to do it. "
Dan covers his mouth with one hand, eyes wide and Paco expect him to stop breathing quickly to overcome the attack of giggles hysterics before feeling satisfied at last.
"Should I talk to Billy? Uh, and when should I tell him? Among I'll take you to football? and your mother made the dumplings for dinner!, M Hagar stand there quite a Ephram know that your uncle has threatened to make me a heart attack woke up with a great blowjob? "
Dan thought of yet another assist in Paco and try to give him some advice, too bad that once again the threads of thought of two men accavallino.
"You now leave him alone when he comes to you and I will tell you, you tell him you're not so much a stranger to that world."
"Well, I remember with some affection Ephram's mouth." Replication with a Paco fintissima dreamily while Dan follows the memory of the discussion he had with the boy.
"... says he does not want to talk about until it is safe and until there is a guy who wants to take home." Then he takes the beat and growls. "Arg, Paco!"
"Sorry, it was too easy to get so angry."
"Asshole!"
Paco laughs heartily jealous of Dan's reaction, quite stirred up, and then try to change the subject to calm tempers.
"So you tell me what happened with Billy without all this reticence?"
Dan realizes that he spent more time trying to keep Paco unaware that what he really spent to explain all the matter. So she decides to do a quick summary telling Billy that he had contacted them to let them know of his crush on a fellow football and begging them to come and see if it was at least vaguely interested or sexual orientation right. Paco
listened attentively to him, but then, the story of the game, he blurts out.
"Oh my God, he asked you? Ephram did not? "
Dan replied ironically.
"Yes, and you manage to vedertelo Ephram trying to figure out if a guy is gay or not? Do you remember that Ephram kissed you! TE! Hoping that I was gay! Ephram's got the radar calibrated bad! "
Both men burst out laughing heartily at the misfortune has become family legend of Ephram and his gay radar always help. Paco shooting first and then surprised Dan with a compliment.
"Poor puppy, luckily you've taken it on you ... otherwise who knows with whom it happened, "Dan
melts at the thought of what has been blessed by Ephram luck in meeting every day and thank those who took care of her husband before they chose.
"you would not leave, you'd be able to close it in his room all their lives to protect him. It is lucky to have had close, you know, right? "And if
Paco smiles at the thought that he was proud to Ephram a small haven of peace where to rest his troubles, it certainly can not afford to let Dan think is sloppy. So do not just have the ironic reply.
"Uh, how sweet! If you hope to tell you that was lucky to find you, you can expect to become straight. "
"But I know that we were lucky to find each other. There is nobody better than him for me! "
" Oh my God ... I'm throwing up in a corner. Silly woman! "
" Asshole, thou hast called poor puppy! "
" I deny it firmly. "Replica Paco sure, but then realizes that he told a silly and adjusts shot feigning indifference . "I call puppy my children twenty-three and eighteen years who are taller and at least one, bigger than me."
course Dan does not miss the opportunity and responds ironically unleashed yet another verbal brawl.
"You have a heart of cream, but what a great daddy you are!"
"And you're a complete bastard!"
"Thanks."
"Hey, come here and let you see who is ; a good daddy! "
" ... even with indecent proposals? See what I mean Light! "
" Yes, and she replied that lends me if you can look! "Laughs Dan
While fully recognizing the most likely reaction Lucilla, Paco returns to serious again and asked for reassurance and control his son.
"Then you look at your boyfriend? Not be deceived, do not make the heart into strips and that no face-fucked by a heartless bastard? "
Dan bites her lip and sincere answers.
"Paco, rather than tell him not to go to bed now I can not do. You know that is his choice who lose their virginity. "Paco
very pained grimaces and replies with a sigh in anguish.
"I do not think farmici, please. It's still a kid playing football in the yard. "
"Paco, is eighteen years old, is no longer a child."
"No, not you, do not tear my illusion!"
Dan biting his lips, yet again, uncertain whether again violating the confidences of the boy for his own good, but then he throws.
"Um, Paco, but you know it that Billy is no longer a virgin? At least with the girls. "
Paco sighed deeply, then reply with some regret.
"How can you say that?"
At that point, Dan feels bad for having been given notice of its kind in boy's father and replication guilty.
"I thought I knew ..." Paco
bursts out laughing heartily, and then reassures the other.
"Yes, I know ..."
"Asshole! I thought I had screwed up, I've already said too much and when Billy finds out kills me. "
" No, I need someone who can be trusted and if he trusts you, to us is fine. Obviously I will talk about with lights. "
" Yes, I think it is better, but please do not let it interfere. "
Paco is lost because the last words of Dan begins to hear noises typical of a late adolescent who runs the house, preparing to pretend that there is nothing strange about the likely bruise on the face of his boy. Must breathe deeply to calm down and not get carried away by his usual mania to take the situation head on and demand the immediate and complete explanations. He realized that this is the wrong reaction, and that Billy could simply shut like a clam with anyone, even with his uncles, if found out who betrayed her trust, and this is definitely the worst that could happen. When do you have under control of his father's anguish, Dan greets his son to find and apply before it comes out.
"Look, I'm going ... I feel it messing with the preparations, the stock market. So good pizza, I guess. "
Dan does a little laugh and appreciates the effort of 'honest and upright Paco nell'assecondare complicated their plans and desperate for help just as much as possible for her boyfriend. The pop a kiss into the microphone and then reassures him greeting.
"It's' quiet, we'll do the toad. A kiss, Jacob. "
" All right, then soon, fag! "Paco
concludes, closing down the conversation.



*** A little later, in the kitchen home Castoldi, wanders pensively a nervous boy intent on hiding their anxiety dall'insalatiera nibble. Paco looks like a lost soul wandering around and every time he lifts his face over him you squeeze the heart on seeing the black bruise on the cheek of her boyfriend.
They just made the speech about how success and Paco hopes of having pretended to drink well the blatant lie of his son, because it is not really possible to shrink the face against a lamppost so only for inattention. She trimmed the boy the usual recommendations, did a little 'the mischievous by suggesting that you should not continue to set people on the street does not want injury, enjoying a bit of malice the unconscious exploded redness on the face of Billy, and then dismissed him with a snort and an impatient gesture for the disasters that can make awkward adolescents.
Now if he finds his feet while preparing dinner. Billy tries to find the courage and the way to tell a blatant dancing to his father to do something really outrageous, at least in the mind of an eighteen year old boy. He clears his throat a few times before pulling out a whisper.
"Hey, pa '... in a while 'I'm going to workout. Aunt and uncle to pick us up later for a pizza, okay? "
" A pizza with his aunt and uncle? And why? "The answer
Paco, hiding her smile with her eyes poking heard in the refrigerator. Billy takes a deep breath before replying a bit 'more relaxed.
"Boh, say they spend little time with me and wanted to talk a bit '." He sighed resigned to his fate and then goes on more and more tense. "They did a straight face when I told him that crashed into a pole last night, Uncle Ephram was all worried about the black eye, you know how it is made that queer hysterical!"
concludes by showing the first symptoms panic because no longer knows how to get out.
"Hey, moderator of the terms! You know I do not accept certain attitudes, "he blurts out his father
really annoyed this time.
"But you say it too ..." replied the boy
surprised by the reaction. Paco comes up and grabs his face with a little 'rudeness to watch one of the cheekbone.
"You were just lost in thought not to see that pole, eh?" Change the subject with a snort.
"Ouch, does' plan ..." Billy shakes his eyes and holds his breath waiting for the pain. When he realizes that his father has no intention of touching the bruise, squints eyes with caution and replication. "I was just tired after the game ..." Paco
stares at him a bit 'and then throws him out and give him the permission. "Okay, you can go, I tell your mother."
Billy does a grateful smile and respond. "Ok, thanks. Now I am going, otherwise arrive late. "



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